Blatant Obfuscation

So why even bother with them?

It is a serious question in my mind. Why should I even bother with resolutions? I have evidence over the years that they are a futile attempt to do and be something that never pans out. Last year I wrote [upon discovery of the list recently] that I wanted to be nicer. Admirable goal I think, I just don't think that I could live up to that. Beyonds that, I have previous lists [I am a pack rat I have things] where I have set goals of being up by a certain time, or achieving a certain grade point average or doing a set number of things. I cant recall a time where I have made it past January possibly even February actually working on those goals.

It was like the discovery of the old lists, I hadn't even spent the time to look at what I wanted to do from last year long enough this year to honestly say that I adopted those resolutions as goals. Rather I see them as the empty list they happen to be.

So do I have some resolutions this year. I think in part the answer is yes and no. I have set some life goals recently, I have mapped what that means and where I need to be. They pretty much serve as my goals. I do know that I am wanting to continue my educations, work on a masters leading to a PhD in statistics, but in order to accomplish that means grad school, which is a goal. Other than that and some ancillaries to the grad school I have no clue which way I am going or what the end should be...

I am currently thinking I am going wherever the wind may blow...some odd notion of not caring what I do, so long as I do something....

we will see...

~u